Sometimes understanding comes from painful experience.
Sometimes understanding comes after hard work and significant reflection.
Sometimes understanding eludes me.
Sometimes I fail to have even a glimmer of what it is I want to understand.
But sometimes … sometimes … understanding comes in a surprising flash of insight that almost carries a physical impact.
I have started an effort at self-care. Again. I have lost track years ago of how many times I have been down this path.
It involves a change in my food choices, a reduction in the amount I consume, and an increase in activity. This marks the third day. I did not walk as much as I want because of allergy issues, but other than that, all has gone well … until about an hour or so ago.
Cravings for chocolate and chips and crackers and cookies and all sorts of other junk food filled my head. I exchanged some text messages with a friend and that helped. I stayed home and did not wander over to the all too convenient convenience store to buy enough junk food to put the owner’s children through college. Still I felt hungry. To be more precise, I felt that I felt hungry.
Before I could leave, understanding came upon me in an instant.
I had the Steelers game on my computer; I had the BYU – Washington State game on the television.
When I watch football or when I listen to football or when I do both at the same time, I eat. I eat not because I am hungry but because eating is what I do when following football. All those parties and gatherings through the years have taught me that when the game is on, so is the feed bag.
Tonight that insight has helped me refrain from mindless overeating. Hopefully that insight will serve me will throughout this year’s football season.
See you along the Trail.